I’m too hard on myself..
This morning felt like the stars were collapsing into me. I had to get up earlier than normally because my husband is at work and then I need to get our little one ready and take her to school. But I couldn’t wake up on time.. and I immediately felt like such a loser. Like I can’t even get up early, why is that so extremely hard for me..
So I send a message to her teacher that she is a bit later (an hour), and made breakfast, did her hair, brushed her teeth, and she can clothe herself.
I had to take a shower and lister to Moonlight Sonata to feel my feelings and try to accept them before I could move on.
After some classical songs I felt a bit better and made lunch. I also had a call appointment with my psychiatrist but at that time I got called by some company and had to call the secretary of my psych and now it’s almost an hour later and I can barely eat because I’m still waiting for a call back..
I feel a bit better and try not to talk myself down too much, but this is just annoying. I don’t know how I can move past this.
#autism #adhd #motherhood