Just some raw feels
We saw the solar eclipse this week. A solar eclipse symbolizes profound transformation, a cosmic reset, and the sudden blending of light and shadow. Something that feels fitting in this season of my life..
It’s already a week ago since we’ve buried my grandmother, and reflecting upon the past week; I’ve been mostly very tired and down.
I also noticed deeper feelings that I have been ignoring for a long time, namely; anger.
I feel like I’m constantly at the verge of imploding, trying to be graceful among others, and not judging or being inconsiderate out loud with other people.
But it feels like I have been inwardly inflicting myself with terrible wounds, and like a paper cut that can hurt much more than bigger wounds to me, one little trigger and I unleash the hounds of my inner hell on the person I love most; my husband. And it’s not fair, and I don’t want to be like this.
But I have to deal with this anger. So I started to make a list of things that I’m angry about, and it was a relief tbh. I think I’ll make this kind of lists more often, even if the themes are continually the same.
Until next time, Verity Voron 🐦⬛